Strictly NO new year resolutions for 2020

Thank you, 2019 !

It’s been such a year of ups and downs. I completed one of my major duty of life and feel relaxed since Feb. At the same time, I downgraded my life style, way of living and another major failure in my life on what I badly wanted to achieve/continue. I tried all my best to hold things tight and close, but it was something beyond what I expected. I was unlucky and believe whatever happened is for something good and that’s how I convince myself most of the time.

All friends and family are kind of nothing when you start failing/falling. At end of the day, you are defined by what you have and where you are.

I realized, if something going to happen, it can not be stopped by anyone. So I have no expectations for 2020, but ready to face anything with all my knowledge and effort.

Am I lucky or not ?

I started to test my luck, the probability is negligible, may be one in a million, but definitely not zero. So, I still possess chances to favor my luck. Let’s see how it goes....

Reading my old post.... Patiences is very important, especially when you play with your luck.

Best quote I ever read !

Struggling for enlightenment...,

I know the exact way to attain enlightenment, but I am lazy and have a tendency on giving up very soon. Need to change a lot to make myself better and enlightenment will be eventually on my way !

After two years !

I felt like telling this to someone or write somewhere the pain that I went thru today. I was/am literally telling myself “this is not for me” like Nageesh. Self realization on how unfit or unlucky I am to pursue something that I need. May be you have made my fate better.....ethu enaku illa...ethu enaku illa....

Only miracle can help my situation..... Sokkanatha... Sokka... Sokka... enaku uthavi panna maatiya...?