A wretched state in my life

I thought that I am trying to fetch Amirtha rasam in my dented pot(an impure soul and body), but now I realized that there is a big hole in the pot that will never allow to store anything anymore. I can only be saved by love and nothing else, will go mad in few days time as I am already in search of an unconditional love for a long while and luckily no one interested. Slowly getting the pain on my head and my grey hairs started laughing on my inability.

Very unfortunate and miserable. In the name of Rama, I don't know what to do. I have no one to even share my present state of mind. Feeling very lonely, even though too many people around me.

Lack of visibility on my way, but full of confident to reach my destiny and if HE has mercy on me, then HE will make me as a destiny to someone else. Right now I am scared and worried to handle this. Most importantly I want to be truthful and a genuine person to the one who choose me as a destiny.

Only a miracle can help me to get rid of my situation. I am not ready and interested to tell anymore lie in my life to anyone for anything. Only HE can help me to lead that life going forward. I am a complicated useless guy :-) and only a form of mother can make me perfect and a complete man.

I have no one to read this blog and I am writing this only for my satisfaction.  

Lying next to my father and his snoring sound reminds me that it's midnight and I need to sleep. However I will listen to kaaki sattai song for next 30 mins. Need to get up early to catch the early morning train as I need to take my Mom with me this time.  

SriRam !!!